then campfire!! so cool! first time i see campfire lehx.. hehe.. den.. chn watch movie.. den we wash up.. den wen e chn went to sleep, we ate supper.. hehe.. got a small chat with e teachers.. so funny.. saying ghost stories and all.. like e must have for all camps.. haha! :) i cant realli sleep cox i'm worried tt e chn might needed some things and they cant find help so i wake up every hr to check and move them back to bed..

18th Nov, 2006:

so quite tiring lar in e morning.. kept sneezing cox not enough sleep.. lucky got e panadol for cold. so quite alrite after tt :) den agatha n mi are in charge of an activity ine treassure hunt.. we had fun, BUT!! e sun is sorching hot!! so we had a hard time too. overall, i'm veri happy and enjoyed myself a lot in e camp! yeah!!!

anywayz, i still meet Marian n Reei in e afternoon cox like no more free days to go shop for winter wear liaoz.. so we went and i bought a set of long jon, scarf and gloves.. tts all lor.. spent bout 50.. Marian running late for church so we rushed.. feel so bad cox i thought for so long.. den nv see e time also.. in e evening Ah Ma invited mi to go for dinner as it's her b'day! so we went to seoul garden for dinner.. veri nice! ate a lot of crabsticks & beef!! yeah!!

19th Nov, 2006:
7.30 mummy n I arrived at e airport liaoz.. but! my cuz they all stil not there.. my cuz going to shanghai with her sec sch orchestra grp.. so nice rite.. den i'm so proud of her also! hehe.. den in e end u noe who cried? it's e youngest cuz there.. haha.. so cute lar he. like will miss her so much.. at first actualli his mom told mi got tears in his eyes.. den after he heard, he cried alreadi.. haha.. so sweet hor he.. but y nv cry wen he send mi off? haha.. not jealous lar.. juz trying to make him smile.. :) i also almost drop tears lar.. cox a bit worried for her, den like cant bear to let her go like tt.. but.. haiz.. 9 days onli.. and i've got confidence tt she'll take good care of herself well, over there. God n my Angel will bless and protect her de! :)

~Godpa, Jarrly, Jasper, Jasmine~

[love them lots!!!]

tts all lor.. enjoyed e pics? haha.. haiz.. gtg.. byez.. :)

Lots of loves, hugs n kisses,

i died.
8:51 PM

An overall fine day today.

[anyway, i juz spot a baby lizard making it's way into the little corner behind the television set]

wats your deepest memories?

memories tt will touch ya heart or hurt yaself wenever u think abt it?

i thought of my Cambodian babies & angels again

this time, i miss them badly

we went for e YEP briefing this evening, 5 - 6pm

they talked abt e Vietnam and Yunnan trip

e slides presentation abt Vietnam reminds mi of Cambodia

e horning u'll hear everyday on e roads, e markets u'll nv miss to visit, and of cox, e lovely children over there

i'm glad tt e situation of tt particular center is a lot more better then CPCDO

and of cox, all these things made mi miss them even more

wat can i do for them?

wat can i provide them?

wat can i help to make them see a better future ahead?

wat can i do to show tt i love them a lot?

they made me see a different kind of love

a simple and truthful love

tt comes straight from e heart

i planned to adopt one of them

but plans do change rite?

cox i needa go through a lot of things before reaching my goal

by e time i reach my goal, do he still need me?

i dunno

wat i can say is tt YEP trips have brought me to understand a lot of things

i can say tt i've changed a lot

not sure if it's for e gd or bad

juz tt i noe clearly wat i want to do now

to be able to help them

my Angels

~I LOVE YOU ALL~

Lots of loves, hugs n kisses,

Sharon

[Dear Angel, i enjoyed times being with Misha and Agatha. u noe sch's gonna come to an end in less than 3 mths? i cant imagine tt. cox i'll sure miss them. all of them. i wanna treasure every min n sec with them, try my best to see their smiles again n again. i can still remember e good times we had together. bad times are fading away and i dun wanna remember it either, cox we needa forgive & forget. i will realli miss them Angel. *tears* But, you n i will nv leave one another rite? I LOVE YOU]

i died.
10:07 PM

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

~If you're looking for my smile~

~Try to make me laugh~

~Cox I realised it's been a while~

~My smile is not as true so far~

~If you're finding for my smile~

~Tell me what keeps it hiding~

~Cox I've searched for miles~

~Not a sign of it, not a thing~

~If you've found my smile~

~There's a recipe or secret to be announced~

~Cox it's not easy to see my smile~

~Not as easy as it sounds~

~If you've made me smile~

~Thanks a million u took e extra mile~

~Cox you're someone I treasure so much~

~I hope I've made it all worth while~

By: ShArOn 11.43pm

~As CoLd As It Is~

Lots of loves, hugs n kisses,

Sharon

[Dear Angel, can u sense problems occuring now? so mani diff types of probs.. do u think i'll be able to handle it? this week is so busy tt be4 i can plan wat time to sleep, it's alreadi midnight. i'm so lucky to have you Angel. thankx for encouraging me all this while. I LOVE YOU]

i died.
11:23 PM

Monday, November 13, 2006

went to visit my darlings today.. hehe miss them a lot ok!!! went to Yvonne's house together for a small gathering. she finally moved to her new house and it realli looked good. although there's not mani furnitures, it's spacious and definately enough for her and her daughter. Her daughter is realli lovely and i'm gonna tutor her next yr. i think we can do well together :) yeah!! den after chatting, we went to bukit merah central to have dinner together.. actualli dunno how to express my feelings lar.. so weird.. i miss e times working with them.. joking around.. talking bad abt e extreme case customers.. cooperation btw e 3 of us.. haiz.. just miss it lar.. but wat to do.. there's always an end in every story rite. :) now wat can i do is do my best to keep in touch wif them :) here are some pics to share:

~E 5 LoVeLy GaLs~

~JuZ e 4 oF uS~

[Magaret, Yvonne, Jan, Cathleen, Me]

~JaN & Me~ so adorable ritez.. love her lotz :)

~JaN JaN & Me~

one more thing, today is our IEP mock.. and we had a great time.. so funny lar e other grp.. hehe.. here's some pics too.

~Agatha, Kirsty, XiuPing, SiangJun, & e ducklings :)~

~XiuPing, Me & SiangJun~

~Kirsty & Me~

~Misha & Me~

Lots of loves, hugs n kisses,

Sharon

[Dear Angel, seeing all e familiar faces today, are u very happy too? i'm veri happy. sad to say tt we cant meet each other everyday, but i feel tt this made us treasure e times we had together. like today. i realli wish tt all of them will live happily. bless them ok? i'll miss them lots. I LOVE YOU TOO]

i died.
9:23 PM

Sunday, November 12, 2006

haiz.. haiz.. haiz.. have been sighing last week.. cox not yet recovered from e cough.. but it's getting better alreadi! of cox! i'm taking vitamin C now ok! hehe.. okie.. so.. let mi briefly say wat happened last week ok..

10th Nov, 2006:

bad day in e morning, cox got very bad stomache ache.. so i missed e first lesson.. which i wanted to go de u noe!! haiz.. anywayz, in e evening, Marian, Kirsty and me went to Tanjong Pagar. We're meeting the YEPians hehe.. some lar.. some cant make it.. so we ate at the hawker centre.. ate Laksa.. den heavy rain lor.. haiz.. so we haf to change table.. den.. e rain stop.. e weather ar.. so unpredictable.. like my mood.. haha.. but now it's under control liaoz ok.. :) YEAH! yar.. anywayz we waited till bout 7+ then they went rock climbing.. and i sit and happily watch them climb.. hehe.. got help a bit here n there lar.. but still enjoyed!! later at nite we went to eat at burger king.. den went home lor.. although not everyone is here for e gathering, but at least most of us came and had fun.. we chatted about e next trip back, and about e children. u noe it's sth tt u cant talk to ya frens who nv went for YEP cambodia. cox they cant understand and the relationship tt we've set up is unique. Thankx guys for being there!! Love all of ya!

~4 of Us~

[Kirsty, Marian, Myra & Me]

[got more pple lar.. but no pics wif mi.. hehe :)]

11th Nov, 2006:

went out wif Jill for an interview.. actualli is accompany her lar.. but den dunno y in e end is 2 of us.. is some multi-level marketing thingy.. i noe my bro is in it too, but diff company. although my bro asked mi to leave cox i wun be interested.. it's true lar i'm not interested at all.. but i realli wanna noe wat my bro is doing.. yar lor.. all younger den mi lar.. can u imagine? i'm like onli 19.. haha.. and they're all at least 2 yrs younger.. not all lar.. but those tt intro mi to e company.. haiz.. boring lar.. we're stuck there for 2 hrs.. but lucky they are all good looking young guys.. haha!!! Jill lar.. say some is handsome and all.. haha.. influence me ar.. but too bad, they're too young.. haha.. like little brothers lar.. so Jill ar.. dun think too much.. :)

den later we went to Marina Square to eat.. chicken rice... again.. haiz.. i think i ate 3 times alreadi leh last week.. anywayz, later on we juz went window shopping.. den signed up for a $23 facial.. one session onli lar.. i signed up cox it's relatively cheaper den e one i always go to.. so juz give it a try lor :) but dun worri it's a known brand lar..

den later we ate xiao long bao! e dish tt we both always wanted to try.. veri delicious!! den later we took 56 back to my house.. she wanna watch my performance in e jolin competition.. wen i reached home, Malcolm is celebrating his b'day also.. so we juz cut e cake wif him lo.. den took pics.. he so cute lar.. haha.. den i took my lappy and went to mac.. we sat down n chat n surf e net for a while.. quite slow lar e internet access there.. anywayz, we stayed ard til 11+ den Jill took cab home.. tiring day lar..

~HaPpY bIrThDaY MaLcoLm~

oh yar.. now looking for part-time jobs.. muz work lar.. $ dun fall frm e sky.. tts all lor.. jia you jia you sharon!! u can do it!!

Lots of loves, hugs n kisses,

Sharon

[Dear Angel, are u tired too? wat a busy week rite.. this week is veri packed too.. hope tt we can get enough sleep k? lets cheer each other up as always! juz smile and we can live e day! thank you for e understandings and care.. remember to look after my little Angels back in Cambodia k? I LOVE YOU]

i died.
10:44 PM

Friday, November 10, 2006

I'm so tired these days.. then to realise tt my next week is almost fully packed with things to be done.. haiz.. but thinking abt it, it's much more better then there's nuttin to do rite.. Anywayz, juz to update things tt happened last few days..

8th Nov, 06:

went out wif Jillian after sch. e next day is her 18th birthday, therefore we had decided to celebrate overnight. actualli i was veri tired alreadi.. cox it was a long day in sch..

fortunately, sch was quite relaxing except for e LECS lesson lar.. cant stand e lecturer lar. BTW we had our IEP meeting and it went on fine. I juz needa draw e map of e Zoo, and bring yellow papers for them on Mon. sounds fun leh our activity, but wat Kirsty say its rite too. u noe our topic is not WAH! enough.. it's e topic tt i thought of.. but i also know tt it's not WAH! enough.. but Sukuna said it was alright, and it was not veri convincing for her to say tt.. haiz.. anyway, i haf confidence in our grp lar! no problem one!! hehe :) yar lor.. ok lar back to Jillian..

yar then i meet up with her for dinner.. she, her godbrother and 2 of her frenz.. i actualli din haf much $ with me, cox i dun intend to meet her for dinner.. but then they went to eat Swensens. haiz.. so cant help but spent a little more lor.. then ard 8+ we head down to town. i told Jill tt it'll be a self-service b'day celebration. u'll noe later.. then we went to take neoprints @ Heeren.. i sacrifice my $1 coins... haha.. cox she's paying for me first for e kbox later.. so i think i should treat her for a neoprint session hehe.. okie.. then after tt we went kbox lor.. ard 9+ alreadi.. oh yar! be4 tt we went to e cafe on e 2nd floor @ cineleisure, i bought a cake for her. she chose it herself lar. not very ex though. den.. wen reaching 12am, i borrowed a lighter frm the waitor and was so high singing and taking pics for her wen e clock strikes 12!! hehee.. she's 18 now!! yeah!! haha.. yar lor like tt lor.. actualli i'm super tired alreadi.. but pretended [e title] to be alright..

~HaPpY bIrThDaY JiLLiAn~

9th Nov, 2006:

surprisingly, i managed to wake up on time. BUT! cox misha cant get on e bus at her place, i decided tt we should take a cab.. BUT! misha cant get a cab at her place.. BUT! in e end of cox she got on one lar.. hehe.. then hor.. e fare was $18+ wen we reached sch u noe! so ex.. cox got jam at her place and before we enter sch.. haiz.. some more i gave e wrong instructions to e taxi driver lor.. haha... i told e driver to turn right, wen in my mind i was thinking to say left.. haiz.. so we actualli went one big round before we get to our blk. then... it was a short and relaxed day lar.. nice teachers.. then after sch we (misha, agatha & me) went to e co-op and bought our sculpture stuffs then went to my house lor.. my mum bought chicken rice for us, as she's too lazy to cook magi-mee.. haha.. anyway, we had fun making our model.. den think they had fun watching Malcolm's graduation concert too! haha.. i cant stop laughing everytime i watch.. haha! so cute lar he! hehe.. yar lor tts all..

~E 3 Angels completed another mission!!~

10th Nov, 2006:

& now i'm at home.. it's like 9.40am. should have gone for e 8am lesson BUT! got bad bad stomache ache wen i was walking to e bus stop.. actualli met up wif misha alreadi.. but cant endure e pain alreadi.. so i walked back home.. took chinese medicine alreadi.. think muz take regulary today.. yar lor.. gotta leave for sch alreadi.. next lesson starts at 10am!! see ya!

Lots of loves, hugs n kisses,

Sharon

[Dear Angel, i should have listen to u this morning.. should have woke up earlier... took e medicine be4 i go out.. so sorry to make u worry.. but i'm fine now! gotta take vitamin pills rite.. like wat Marian say.. before i go to Yunnan, muz keep my body strong.. :) thankx for everything Angel. wat am i without u? I LOVE YOU]

i died.
8:28 AM

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

~ I wish for happiness ~

~ I wish for love ~

~ I wish for health ~

~ Wealth's not worth ~

~ I wish upon a star ~

~ My wish went too far ~

~ I wish it'll come back~

~ Wif someone on e track ~

~ I wish he heard ~

~ The wish I search ~

~ I wish I'll end ~

~ Wif e wish I defend ~

~ I wish for happiness ~

~ I wish for love ~

~ I wish for health ~

~ Wealth's not worth ~

Watched 'The Prestige' yesterday. The movie was awesome. Gd storyline, gd plot. Strong characters and experienced actors. Wonderful! :) I liked 'The Covenant' too. :) hehe.. Steven Strait!! haha.. :)

Lots of loves, hugs n kisses,

Sharon

[Dear Angel, have you been wishing? there are so many ways of wishing for ya wish to come true. how true are they? believe it & it'll come true, they say. well, nothing is important now. i actualli like e way my life leads me to. let mi think abt it. i'll be fine :) I LOVE YOU ANGEL]

i died.
9:58 PM

Saturday, November 04, 2006

Although i'm not feeling well today, actualli is since wed nite.. anywayz, i still managed to wake up and went for Malcolm's graduation concert. He's so adorable. hehe.. :) well.. i dunno wat to write cox i actualli write an entry earlier on, saved it as draft, but den! i cant find it! so it's like.. no more mood to write liaoz.. yar lor..

juz tt i feel e happiness and saw lots of smiles today on the parents' and children's faces. If i'm one of them, i'll be so proud of my child. :) And one more thing tt affected was one of e teachers' pronounciation. Being the host of the day, I would have expect her Eng to be good, as in communication skills. But, she shocked me by saying things like,'cerFITIcate', rather than 'cerTIFIcate'.. oh man.. i'm so worried for e children.. at first i thought she was juz nervous. BUT THEN! there are more mistakes coming up! Haiyo... almost cannot take it ar.. haiz..

sometimes my memories really frighten me. Like today, when i enter the sch's canteen, i cant remember anything. Only focused memories of e photos tt i took there during one of my birthdays. No movement at all.. maybe one.. or two.. i dun even remember which teacher took me, & i bet my brother remembers! maybe it's juz me and my memory. tts y i needa take lots of pics to remind mi of every single event.

Ok back to Malcolm, he's so adorable today. He never failed to take a chance to outstand among his frens. He wanted to look for us, and wanted us to look at him. Before his first performance started, he raised his hand, facing us(my mom, his mom & me, but my mom left after his 1st performance). So funny when he danced, but i can see e enthusiasm in him :) SO PROUD OF HIM!! then there's one part when all e chn line up in one row, den pop out their heads from one side, then e other.. U'll not miss his head. haha.. he bent so low tt we can spot him immediately! haha.. he realli put a smile on my face today :)

Then i realised that i do not have to worry for him when he goes to Primary 1. Teachers loved him, and i noe tt he will not be bullied. maybe he bully others lar.. haha.. ya lor so i'm relieved and happy for me. ok here are some pics i took today.. :)

~HaNdSoMe MaLcOLm~

~MaLcOLm & Me~

~E cAnTeEn~

Lots of loves, hugs n kisses,

Sharon

[Dear Angel, we enjoyed so much rite! so happy today! but for e morning onli.. thankx for protecting me and keeping me safe. But medicines juz dun work on me and i dunno y... or i took e wrong medicine leh? ... dunno lar.. maybe cox i've always had a weak body since young, cox of e ex-illness. i juz cant stand it wen i fall sick often. i'm so lucky to haf u by my side always. wat can i do without u. I LOVE YOU]

i died.
10:30 PM

Friday, November 03, 2006

Have not been blogging since...??? anyway.. was not feeling well today and stayed at home... sad to say i missed one of my fav lesson, and one australian university talk tt i wanted to go for.. haiz.. but wat to do.. cant even open my eyes in e morning.. so smsed Misha & XiuPing to let them noe tt i cant go..

mmm.. so wat i did today... woke up at 1pm.. den i ate breakfast.. i was quite depressed wen i watch the Oprah Winfrey Show this afternoon. it was abt a war i think.. but then it's e process tt's so saddening. it's abt e jewish being tortured or should i say they are not even given a chance to live. so sad. i wanna get e book tt e brave man wrote. he's one of e survivor and can u imagine how hard it is for him to return to his memories and share it with others again. Every word he said touched my heart. let me juz briefly describe one of e terrible things those inhuman soldiers did...

If it was a fine and windy afternoon, it was juz a devil's plan in disguise.
Lovely children, wonderful mothers, adorable elderly are all gathered on a big field.
They had no idea why did they have to be there.
Consoling words came along,
'Don't worry, you're juz taking a shower', said e soldiers.
No i should say devils.
All of them went through this big gate, and wen e gate closes, it's all too late to rebel.
They were asked to strip off their clothes, and go into the big celler.
They had no idea yet.
They must had fear.
They separated e men n women.
Mothers will not leave their children.
They entered e celler.
Soldiers stuffed as much of them as possible into e celler.
When it's full, they closed the tough metal door.
What to expect?
Death.
One toxic gas can thrown from up above.
It won't take long, before everyone fell deeply asleep.
Never awake forever.
Bodies are left for e fire to burn.
Those devils had families, had culture, had love.
They hadn't got feelings & empathy.

I'm sorry if i described it wrongly or said anything wrong abt e incident. This is wat i felt and taken in as an audience, after watching the show. Tears will sure flow if u watch tt chapter. We're so lucky to be living in this century, this world now. Something really touched my heart

To those who lost their lives, We Remember.
To those who survived, We hear you.
To those in our memories, We Will Never Forget.

-i'm not sure if i get all these correctly, but i think i'll nv forget-

well, i'll try to get e book written by him. wen i got it, i'll write his name correctly. i respected him so much tt i do not want his name be put down wrongly. stay tuned!

I'm shocked by Huang Lie Chuan's performance on Happy Sunday! So cool! I'll support him cox i saw his hardwork! :)

Lots of loves, hugs n kisses,

Sharon

[Dear Angel, so much of feelings surrounded us today. so glad tt u're here to share it wif me always. i realli think tt we cant be feeling down or sad always, as life have to go on. today's show made me realised tt we have to grow stronger. They did not sarcifice for us, but we must honour them and pay them our respects. E things they'd gone through they cant explain for themselves and they will not want us to go through e same as us. thankx Angel, I LOVE YOU]

i died.
8:10 PM