today was a.. weird day.. supposed to go to work.. but wen i reached, den i noe tt they forgotten to inform me. haiz.. so i went back lor.. cox i can go for my relative's funeral also. so y not. at e funeral, it was fast n simple. not like e usual ones tt i've seen. i did not cry, although there were few moments wen i felt like it. i remember mummy told me tt she din wan us to cry, she wan us to send her off with smiles. so i did. :) i could not visit her wen she's sick. and she asked for me. so tts e least tt i can do for her. wen i looked at e coffin, i can 'see' her sitting on it and smiling back at me. she's such a nice lady. real nice. but she's gone. and tts a fact. it's onli gonna cause pain for a while, cox life has to move on. i felt tt on e first day tt we're born, we're juz waiting to die anyways. oh yar! not working tml.. and therefore.. i can join my team for picking up litters!! yeah! a gd closure is all i wan :)

after attending e funeral, bro was supposed to go to work. but i asked whether he can not go to work, and go kbox wif me.. haha! i'm so bad rite.. anyways, he doesn't haf e mood to go also.. i'm 'saved' him leh.. haha.. so mani excuses.. hehe.. :) yar lor.. from 1.30 to 6pm we sang. so fun! but i forgot to bring my cam! how could i!!! but i still captured him on my phone. haha :) den ltr on..

asked him whether he wanna go out n haf dinner or wat, but he was real tired. so i went back home for dinner. so sad.. if i know tt i've got no work today, i might haf other plans. now my mum, aunt n bro is out!!! left my grandparents n me at home.. fri nite u noe.. haiz.. :( but was feeling tired alr.. so it's alrite! well, it's fated tt i muz be at home. anyways, wrote this sort of peom wen i was @ work tt day.. dun think it means anything.. but was how i felt. i think.

Everything is just so not right,

When i think it is so fine.

What is so wrong?

I can't compare with a song.

I'm living each day,

Holding onto tears,

Withstanding my fears.

What i've got, to gain this?

I'm not even worth it at all.

It just doesn't match, suit or defined,

All the colours in my eyes.

Faking images to be true,

I'm learning to walk through.

Learning, trying, throughout

What have i gained?

I shared and understood.

What's e point then?

When you're not even there.

Lots of loves, hugs n kisses,

Sharon