have u ever spot tt difference in you? tt u'd wished tt nuttin changes? tots running, running tots. unreachable ones. but well wen u lost sth, u've gained sth in return rite. but somehow everything came too late. too late to reach out. too late to apologize. too late to realize. too late to be true. i was looking at my lil ones to day and there's tots running thru my head. wat will they become wen they grow up? how long can innocence lasts? or u hide it away cox u noe tt u haf to fake and put up a strong front? how long can one person love you? how long can u remember tt u're loved by someone so much wen u're little, or wen u're in need of love? how long can love lasts? how long can ya memory last be4 u decided to hide it inside or let it fade away. time aids one to feel better. not to forget. it might help to forgive, nv to forget. its so amazing how much can hurt changes a person. but well, its part and parcel of life isnt it. looking into my kids' eyes.. i felt e sincerity, innocence and purity. tt i could nv return and get it back.
i felt so lost today. handling lessons were not a problem. but having attachment students observing me is weird. like though am qualified to be a teacher, but i dun realli have to confidence to do a good job or be a good role model. am juz doing and trying my best everyday. of cox there're some more things running in my mind and it's not functioning well, am like doing things aimlesly. luckily i muz emphasize tt enfant educare has a group of veri helpful and collaborative teachers. so we actualli had lots of fun during work. thanks teachers. :) okie lar.. juz feel like blogging today.. nuttin much.. on 8am shift tml!!! omg! haha. gtg.. nitez everyone :)
okies. i shall type less and start updating...
2nd April. 2008:
today is considered an important and special day for myself.




it is my very first individual presentation for one of my modules. of cox, i was excited, nervous and veri happy. as in, i knew wat is expected and sort of gained confidence from my preparation work. but!!! i den realized that i forgot to insert slides for my portfolio at a glance. as i've still got some time to add in, i juz did it. so e presentation went fine, and i think i entertained my classmates with my reactions.. though i dun realli noe wat i did.. anyways, i kinda expected tt a small clip tt i'd made is unable to be played. so, i had my presentation plan B. i inserted all e pics instead of the clip. and i think my classmates were amused by my plan B. haha! well, i always like to prepare for 'in case' situations.. yupz, so, this is our attire for e presentation.. reei and i.. me me me! :) and am veri relieved after tt, cox its been so long tt we presented to the class, let alone having to present alone. well, i din let my owner and naggy papa down! haha!
5th April, 2008:
6th April, 2008:
met up wif my ex A-Square music schmates. still as crasy and lovely as ever!!


8th April, 2008:
9th April, 2008:
12th April, 2008:
went to this women's talk with margaret (my ex-colleague. we were quite close during tt period as i was e 'lil' gal working in the shop and they realli took care of me. we shared lots of stuff and we realli do respected each other). am veri happy to see her again, but a lil upset tt my other colleagues cant make it.



well, i did suspected tt this talk has sth to do with her church, but i din give much of a tot to it, as she din mention it in e first place. but den!!!! am juz so smart!! haha. well, i realli think tt a religion brings ppl together, and support one another. however, i felt tt there might be some relevant and more applicable and workable ways in doing things. its like, give suggestions for ppl to go through their life betteR? or sth like tt.. i dunno how to explain here, cox i dun wanna upset any religion.. but well, isnt it good for some spritual support and sth to believe in? well, after e session, i became super emo. realli emo.

i wanted to sms my frens, but den, i kept it back. i knew tt it's gonna go away soon, but i juz dunno wen. i mean, its like.. ppl are talking abt right and wrong.. but who are we to say tt someone is wrong.. as i was reading 'nineteen mins' i realized tt, hey! there's so much to know within a person, and why are they reacting this way. i realli felt like wat jodi picoult wrote in her book, 'you could patch up watever was broken, but if you were e one who had fixed it, you had always know in your heart where e fault lines lay'. isnt it so true. well, i teared on my way home. cox i read e ending and did some thinking and stuff.. well, crying for me is a way to release emotions and such ba.. anyways, i felt better wen i reached godma's house. e next day, we're going to the cemetery to visit my cousin's grandparents and aunty. my bro and i followed them almost every yr, but we missed it last yr, and i felt tt we should be present this yr.. be4 we go, jarryl is still 'communicating' with his jack-jack. haha!

act come to think of it, i influenced him to be in love wif jack-jack. cox i imitated e baby's way of communication and he simply love him. haha. and now, he's veri attached to this soft toy. haha. after tt, we head to kallang for lunch at e famous prawn noodles stall.. den we head to the cemetries.on e way, godma tried tying my hair in diff styles.. as usual.. haha!


after tt we went to eat prata!! yeah!!! hehe! mine is milk prata.

ya noe i always like mixed flavours.. like sweet and salty.. hehe! and this chocolate prata is unique but tastes ok i think..

e prata portion was big, and i should say maybe a lil too much for us. my bro and i din had dinner tt day. haha! okies, i forgot e date tt we went clubbing together wif juniors. haha! but den, i remember tt it was an indeed tiring and interesting nite. phuture was packed and e music juz blast into ya ears. anyways, here's e pics!!!




14th April, 2008:
17th April, 2008:
farewell to another module of mine!!! and i simply love this professor lots! she's always well prepared and so true in the lessons and towards us. miss ya lynn!!! :)

19th April, 2008:
Lots of loves, hugs n kisses,
Sharon
[Dear Angel, life is full of ups and downs. losts and gains. appetite-less and sleepless nites. but well, i'd got through it all din i? but as i always say, memories hit me badly. always. however, i juz read this email from my fren. u would agree too rite. 10% of e things tt happen to u is out of ya control.but yet, e rest 90% are ya reactions to e situations. so true. keep tt in mind. pls remind me. wen are we going to dream about heaven again? will i be able to see e light wen i move on? will u still be wif mi? I LOVE YOU]
i died.
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